Just feeling so tired this few days.
have been going for course counselling with Joshua they all this few days.
lucky got this bunch of cliques that make me laughs till peng when we go out.
arbo i really emo siao liao. LMAO!
my girl-friends all have gotten good grades and no need to worry so much.
and enjoying their lifes now, and me? lol...
they can choose the course they want and i have to let the course to choose me.
other than that, they have siblings, parents, relatives, cousin and capable boyfriends to discuss with
and i have to all depend on myself. even go course counselling also with few friends some more not those really close with me de go with me-.-
what else can i do when i am the only child? everything has to do it myself and depend on no one.
it's not the aggregate i've gotten that makes me sad even i know i deserved this kinda of grades,
it is the part when i think of, i'm the only child and my parents spent so much money on me before O's and i still gotten such a lousy grade that make me feel guilty and sad.
I've always feel i have disappoint my parents even though they said is okay and alright that I've done my best.
my tears will just drop uncontrollably down whenever they ask me how was it doing with my JAE this 2 days.
Anyway, i just wanted to let the people out there to know that don't look down on me(or people have the same situation with me) this kind of "solo kia". Its the process of independence that make us, this kind of people, from a weakling to a strongman. If you have negative opinion on me, then jolly well fuck off far far! Thanks! :D
P/S: Just wanted to thank those that have been by my side, especially Cheryl and Zihan during the release of results:D
